12wks

Wow, I'm so close to being out of the first trimester I can taste it! I'm SO ready to feel better again. Yesterday was a big turning point for me, I've just been feeling terrible and starting to feel discouraged, but my 12wk ultrasound seeing baby "Griffin" (the name I want for either sex, which we won't know till the birth!) flipping around in there really did wonders for my spirit. Makes feeling so terrible way more bearable!! I don't care what anyone says, being pregnant with 2 kids is really hard, they don't care about anything but playing and doingthe normal, they don't know mommy is so exhausted she can barely talk or that she needs to constantly throw up and usually does most nights after dinner. They deserve there normal routine with a momma thats happy and fun, hopefully i can get there asap, I'm trying really hard. Seeing the baby's heartbeat flashing, the face and arms next to the face and the spine and chubby belly, it just never gets old! I told Bryson, I saw our baby on a tv today, want to see a picture, and showed him, i said, do you think it's a boy or a girl? "Mommy, it's a girl" and her name is "Jessie" he is obsessed with Toy Story Characters, so i guess it's better than the boy names he picked of Batman and Buzz, right? LOL. I asked him if he wanted to come next time and see the baby too, he smiled big and said "YES!!" so I definately think I will take him in Aug to my 'big' 3D Ultrasound, even if we won't find out the sex, it will be fun to include him. Hopefully he doesn't break anything! LOL.

Nolan is doing great, completely has no clue what is coming.. poor kid, we will start talking about it once my belly is big and it's closer to time...he's trying hard to talk more, i still don't understand much of what he says. He is obsessed with 'melmo' (elmo) right now, and loves quack quacks (anything with wings, mostly birds) he is such a bright eyed little joy, don't get me wrong, that red headed temper shows thru, ALOT, and he definately lets you know how he feels about everything! But he wakes up so sweet, smiley and happy each day, and when you let him outside, he is soo thrilled. Its so fun to watch life thru a child's eyes! Until the NO and tantrums of the day hit. ha ha.